‘H & ‘T // disparus de ma vie mais toujours dans le coeur.

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately… somehow the thoughts just creep into my mind and won’t leave until I admit that everything’s changed and nothing stays the same. So many people have come and gone again in the past, some of which I do not miss at all, but some of them will always have une p’tite place dans mon coeur. And it’s strange to think that within ten years the life that I’m leading now will have completely changed as well and most probably, I’ll have said my goodbyes to some people again. But I guess that’s life… ?

To continue the subject of change, I have applied for university-owned accomodation in Sheffield. They won’t start allocating rooms until mid July, which is quite annoying, but at least I’ve registered early and I hope everything will be OK. I still have many things to arrange – and a lot of money to earn – but at least this has been done.

I can’t believe my second year at university is practically over already! I had my last exam today and I’ve only got two essays due in June before it’s really over. Unless I need to resit any exams, which is not impossible as American Literature didn’t go quite well. But we’ll see!

This year’s gone by so fast, it’s really unbelievable. It’s funny to think that within three months time I’ll be a third-year student AND studying in England! Speaking of which, I’ve finally registered with the university. Now I have to wait five weeks before they’ll send me information on Housing etc. It’s amazing how SLOW they are in Sheffield. Now I just hope that everything can be done via internet, because I’ll be in France from 26 July until around 2 September, and my parents won’t get back from France until 15 August so I won’t know about any of their mail before that time.

Other than that Amaury came over once again and it was good. As usual. It’s just that it would have been so much better if we lived near each other… But we made a choice and it’s up to us to make the best out of it. And we’re working on it.

I haven’t really got much else to say… I might blog again this weekend. Or not. =)

Wow! A new layout! I know the previous one hasn’t been up very long but it was too sombre and wintery that I decided to put up a new one anyway. & I LOVE IT! It features French singer Christophe Maé, my new obsession. You know, I think I might even be starting to become French. Well, it’s not that strange if you look at the weather! It’s finally stopped raining but from the moment I woke up this morning until about an hour ago, it was only rain and wind. I mean, we’re f*cking May now… could we please have something more summery? So yea, a new layout. More colourful and I think the blend turned out pretty nice.

So what’s been going on lately? First of all I finally got all the results of my exams and I passed them all! I did so much better than I’d expected I would:
Latin: 9.5
British Literature: 7
Grammar: 8.5
Writing & Translation: 7.5
(All notes are out of 10)
I hadn’t expected notes like these, but obviously I’m not complaining.

Other than that, it’s only ten days until Amaury’s coming over! As usual I’m already counting down the days and I have to say: it’s going rather fast. Still not fast enough, of course.

I still haven’t heard from Sheffield… they should be mailing me their application forms and such soon, but I haven’t received anything yet. It’s about time they do, because I want to know when I’ll be leaving and such. I’m really looking forward to it… Actually, I just want to get away from here because everyone around me seems to annoy me. Sometimes they all look so dumb to me; and last night again it turns out that I really cannot say anything to them because they will talk about it AND change my words so that it fits well into their histories and their opinions. I’m so sick of it. I mean, why tell something when you can’t even remember what really went on? It’s sad.

I’ve been ranting about nothing again so I’m gonna call it quits for today. In my previous post (yesterday’s) I posted a graphic of my cat Appie. He’s been gone for over eight weeks now and I miss him. I’d never thought I’d miss him so much, but I do. I just want him to come back, but I don’t really think he will. But we’ll see. I think the graphic looks nice, though.

Long time no speak… I know, it’s been a while!

So, while everyone’s been too busy having the most wonderful time of their lives qu’est-ce qui s’est passé in mine?

Well, first of all the selection for Sheffield has finally taken place and I’m happy to say I will be studying at the University of Sheffield from September until January! I’m too excited about it – there’s still a lot to arrange, but at least now it’s sure I’ll be going so I know I’m not working my ass off to earn money for nothing!

What’s more is that I had exams again two weeks ago. I daren’t really say anything about my grades… I know of one course that I’ve passed it: I got a 7 in British Literature, which was a relief because it’s one of the courses of which I wouldn’t have liked to resit the exam since it’d mean I’d have to reread all the books!
I’m dreading my grade on the Grammar take home exam though… and my Writing & Translation paper as well. Ah well, all I can do is keep my fingers crossed and hope for a good grade, right?

Today I went to the fysio therapist again. It’s been two years since I last went there and it was for my knees. This time it’s for my back and it turns out one of my ribs isn’t it the right position but it’s all stuck so he’s trying to get it loose and then replace it. Somehow. But I’m in real pain at the moment… what he did today really hurt me and it’s not even done yet. He said it’s probably gonna take a few weeks. At least. [sarcasm] YAY!!! [/sarcasm]

Other than that I’m leaving for France again next week and I’m already counting down the days – only 8 left! To get into the mood I’ve downloaded Christophe Maé’s live album "Comme Á La Maison" and although I still think he has a weird voice I love his songs (A).

I hope I’ve reassured everyone than I’m not dead but just really busy… but I’ll try and update this blog more often from now on. (I know how these promises go though… xD)

xoxo

J’ai envie d’écrire a story sur nothing, so c’est ça qu’I'm gonna do.

The past few days J’ai passé counting down les jours, jusqu’à Saturday. It’s still six days away, mais I hope que ces jours vont se passer VITE!

C’est bizar to write en Anglais et in French en même temps, mais c’est like that que je pense en ce moment. Les mots are all mixed up dans ma tête et souvent je me rappele the word in one langue quand j’ai besoin du mot de l’autre. It’s a mixed up world, n’est-ce pas?

Hier soir c’était l’anniversaire à Mariska… ‘t was GREAT. On était tous ensemble, for the first time since… longtemps. On s’est rappelé tous ses trucs we used to do at school… ça m’a fait trop rire! Ça m’a aussi fait pensé qu’I love them so much. I don’t think je pourrais vivre sans eu. Ils m’ont manqués avant et we’re gonna miss each other beaucoup plus later on, but I think personne ne peut nous séparer.

♥ Je vous aime!

J’ai trouvé l’homme de ma vie. Le seul problème… c’est qu’il habite à 1400km de chez moi. =’(

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

2008 has, like any other year, gone by so fast and many things happened… In chronological order:

1. Driver’s License

I started taking driving lessons in the beginning of 2008 and although I hated them with a passion, I passed my (second (A)) exam this week and I’m glad I’ll finally be in possession of that ugly, pink card next week, even if it’s only for the money I’m saving from not having to pay for the lessons anymore. =)

2. Break up

In February Christopher broke up with me. I was devastated and havebeen sobbing over it for months, but times have changed and I’ve movedon. It wasn’t meant to be.

3. New Job

I quit my old job at the clothes/underwear/rubbish shop and got employed with my dad’s company. The job itself isn’t very interesting and my wages aren’t too high (but definitely not too low!), but I’m enjoying myself and for the time being I’m perfectly fine.

4. University

I passed all my first year courses at university of which I’m very proud, and I started my second year in September, taking extra courses on Latin. Even though it can be a pain what with deadlines and all, I feel lucky to be given the chance to study and get an academic degree.

5. Crete (4 June – 12 June)

After working so hard at university and feeling sad over the break up I took a week off and went to Crete where I stayed with my grandparents. I had a great time and I have started to love the island even more than I already did. I feel like I’m at home there and I’m definitely going to take lessons to learn Greek someday!

5. Perry

My friend Perry came back from Australia after having been there for about eight months! With four of us (one of our friends missing) we went to welcome him at the airport and it’s been great having him back.

6. France

At the end of July I went to France with my parents, my grandparents, and my sister… after not having been there for four years (we used to go every summer) it was a relief somehow to see those lavender fields and blue skies again and to be away from everyone and everything completely for three whole weeks. It was there that I finally found the peace of mind I’d been looking for for weeks, months even.

7. Amaury

This kind of goes with the holiday mentioned above since it was in France that I met my current boyfriend. He lives 1400km away from me but I love him like I’ve never loved someone before, it’s crazy! The distance a huge pain in the butt, but the thought of him keeps me going and I’ve spent some lovely times with him. It is him who’s shown me what love is and what a relationship should be like. ♥

8. Prague

In November I went to Prague with my parents and my sister. It was really cold and it even snowed! We had a great time and it was nice to spend some time with my family.

9. New Year’s

I spent New Year’s Eve with my boyfriend in France… it was just the two of us (and lots of OLD people) in a hotel and it was GREAT. I missed watching the clock on the telly hit midnight and counting down those last ten seconds with my family and afterwards going out partying with my friends all night, but being alone with the person I love and whom I get to see five days every two months can’t be beaten…

Many other things have happened that characterise 2008 for me, but these are the most important ones…

But now… it’s time for 2 00 9!

The year’s started off GREAT being with Amaury (even spending four extra days with him due to weather circumstances! =D) and seeing Marloes again after those five months she spent in Mexico. I’ve already said goodbye to another friend, who left for England this week, though and within two weeks time another one of my best friends is going there for six months, so it’s a constant change of happiness and grief this month.

But hey, the year’s only just started!